Marriage Isn't For Me.

Summer of 2006...a wedding in Rome...about as close as we've come to marriage.

First weeks of dating...he always had his arm around me.

I started this blog two months ago today. I have talked about my children many times but have yet to touch on my marriage. Why? Because Valentino and I were never married. We met and began dating 8 years ago, fell in love,  had two great kids, but as for a walk down the aisle...never happened! I can't give you a solid reason for why we never married except that when I think about spending forever with someone I become paralyzed with fear! How could I be happy with someone for a lifetime...furthermore how could they be happy with me for a lifetime? I have been trying to reconcile this feeling for awhile and this article Marriage Isn't For Me has really helped! If I ever do decide to marry Valentino (or anyone else for that matter) I need to resign to the fact that I am not marrying to make myself happy but to offer myself and my love (for a lifetime...gulp) to the other person...with the sole intention of making them happy! I have to say putting a different perspective on it has eased my fears...at least for today:)